Wednesday, 20 August 2014

Episode Five

Episode five

It looks nothing like a club, in fact more like a top rated restaurant. There are tables scattered all over the room with white liner tablecloths and candles sat in the middle.  Crystal chandeliers hang from the ceiling and the lighting is dimmed but gives that relaxed effect. A woman is stood in the corner, dressed in a white ball gown singing the blues. Her voice is low but yet creates a seductive atmosphere.
All the men are wearing suits and they practically scream money. A few women are dressed like me and Rosie, but seem to be sat down remaining quiet and still. Each man oozes some sort of power of them and that is obvious.
Rosie guides me to a bar, my heels click on the polished wooden floor. The place smells amazing. The fear I once had disappears, this place doesn't look scary at all. In fact I love here, its relaxing. As we walk towards the bar a few men look at us and give delightful smiles. I can’t help but smile back.  Is there actually a chance but fit in somewhere?
“Good evening, Ladies” says a warm welcoming voice. I look up to find a man dressed in a black suit, he’s tall and the suit clings to every defined muscle of his body. His hair is a deep black and his eyes match almost onyx. He’s smile is mesmerizing, especially as he has cute dimples imprinted on the side of each cheek. He has to be at least 25-26. ‘I’m really glad you could make it, Rosie.”
I watch Rosie blush under his gaze. Oh, this must be Mr Lawerence. She was not wrong about how good he looks. No wonder she couldn’t wait to get here. The way he stands reminds me of Mr Cole. He has that authorizing stature about him, but doesn’t seem half as intimidating. I am not squirming on the spot or feeling self conscience.
“Who is your friend?” His eyes turn to me and he gently holds out his hand.
“I’m Abby Robinson” I reply confidently, slipping my hand in his.
“It’s a pleasure to meet you” he says in a gentleman fashion and places a sweet his on my hand. He lets go of my hand and turns his attention to Rosie. “We should go and begin, Rosie. Miss Robinson, please order what you want. This shouldn’t take very long.” He extends his arm to Rosie and she jumps to his side. I watch as the pair disappear into the back.
Where are they going? Its then I notice a few other couples also going through a door in the back. I wonder what’s behind there? I look around and suddenly feel like a loner. So much for fitting in? Everyone seems to be coupled up. I let out a depressed sigh and sit up on a stool.
“You must be new” says a charming voice. I look up through my eyelashes and see a man with blonde hair stood next to me. Wow, are all the men in this place good looking. I swear if it wasn’t for the ranges in hair colour they would look like clones of each other.
“Yes” I cringe, looking back down at the bar. “I came with a friend, but she went over there.” I point to the back, where everyone seems to be disappearing too.
He gives a throaty laugh. “I see… As you’re now alone why don’t I buy you a drink?” He clicks his fingers and in a flash a barman appears. “Two rum and cokes.”
“I don’t drink” I almost yell.
“I think you may need a drink in this place… It may help with shock.”
Shock? I think I more shocked that is persisting to give me alcohol. Two glasses rest between us and I stare at the brown liquid. The blonde stranger picks his up and takes a massive gulp. My eyes look up at him as he wipes the resisdue off his full lips. A smile grows across his lips and its infectious.
“Come on” he raises an eyebrow. “One drink isn’t going to hurt you. surprisingly you may enjoy it.”
I think about it. One drink? Its weird that’s its taken me to reach 25 to even be brought a drink. I think about my little prep talk, tonight I am different. I have already boldly walked into some mysterious place, sighed some weird document and now a beautiful man has brought me a drink. Yes, tonight is a night to take all risks.  I pick up the glass and take a little sip. The sweet liquid runs down the back of my throat and it tastes delicious.
“That’s nice” I smile, pleased with myself.
“I know” he winks and leans against the bar. “Do you have a name, beautiful?”
My jaw drops open in shock. No one has called me beautiful before, not even an ex boyfriend. I feel my cheeks slightly flush and I take another sip of my drink. “Abby” I whisper.
“Abby” he whispers back. “I’m Jordan.”
For the next hour me and Jordan sit at the bar chatting and laughing. I feel so relaxed in his presence. He’s funny, charming and easy going. He is exactly what I needed after the intense week with Mr Cole. I’m not sure if it’s the alcohol or the ego boast, but I feel great and ready for anything.
“You’re curious, aren’t you?” He is now sitting really close to me, his hand almost touching my arm. I like it, I have never felt so confident around a man before. Especially when he’s a good looking man, the type that don’t give me a second look.
“About what?” I cheerfully ask, turning to face him.
He reaches out and places a loose strand of my hair behind my ear. His eyes slowly look towards that door at the back. “What’s back there? I’ve seen you looking a few times.”
“Oh” I giggle, I actually thought I was being discreet about it. “What is behind there?” I ask, leaning a little closer towards him. Wow, he smells fantastic and all I can think about it his lips on me. Our eyes lock and something begins to build down below. My hands have a mind of their own and land on his knee. He doesn’t seem to mind as his own hand rests on top of mine.
“I don’t think it is something nice girls should see.”
I give a little pout. “What if I’m not a nice girl?” I flutter my eyelashes. “What if I’m the bad one?”
He gives a little chuckle. I know, I need to work on my flirting techniques. Being in his pretence is doing something to me. I’ve never felt as calm and relaxed. His finger brushes along my cheek, he leans closer and his lips gently touch my cheek.
“You need to be bad to go back there” his voice is husky and something shivers through me. He sits back a little as to take me in. His mouth twitches and he slowly stands up.
“Okay,I’ll give you a little tour… Did you sign your NDA?”
“Yep” I smile with delight.
“Good” he holds out his hand and I eagerly accept as he helps me to stand. My whole body sways slightly, but he keeps a hard grip of me. We begin to make our way towards that DOOR, my heart beats fast in anticipation. I wonder what is behind there? We are almost there and I get excited that in a second all my answers will be revealed.
“Wait!” Yells a voice  ---a cold voice. My heart now slams against my chest and I feel the dread wash over me. There is no way. Jordan stops walking much to my disappointment. I don’t want to turn round, I know once I do this good feeling will evaporate and I will become that quivering mess.
Jordan turns his head to look behind us. I swear I him mutter ‘shit’. “Mr Cole” his voice is actually warm and welcoming. Great, just want I didn’t want. He lets go of my hand and spins me round to face Mr Cole. He is in his usual suit, messing hair and icy eyes. Straight away, I look down at my feet.
Jordan” his tone is clipped.
“I’m sorry” Jordan says, wrapping an arm around me. “I was just giving Abby a tour.”
“That won’t be necessary” His glare turns to me and he looks angry. “Jordan, a word” he snaps and head gestures back to the bar. Jordan nods and walks off. “Stay here” he hisses at me. I remain stood on the spot and watch as he walks towards Jordan. I watch as the two men talk, after first I think they are arguing and Mr Cole is running his fingers through his hair. Jordan begins to nod and the men shake hands.
Mr Cole walks back over to me, while Jordan disappears out of my sight. NO! What has just happened? Why did he have to show up and destroy my wonderful night. I am beyond angry, what is his problem.
“Come” he beckons.
I fold my arms across my chest. “NO!”
A little smile grows across his lip. “Did you just say no to me?”
“Look Mr Cole” I begin, pointing my finger at him. “I spend every week day dealing with your lists and weird requests. It’s the week.” I pop out my hip and rest my hand on it. “If you didn’t realise it’s Saturday and I don’t have to be ordered around by you.”
He raises an eyebrow, gives a little chuckle and rubs his brow. I feel a warm glow from my brave attempt at standing my ground. However, that is short lived as he pushing me up against a wall. His hips pinning me in place, his forefinger and thumb gripping my chin, making me look into those icy eyes that send my body into an frenzy. I swallow hard; I’ve never been this closer to him. His body feels hard and he’s so strong.
He inhales deeply. “It would seem alcohol becomes you, Miss Robinson” his voice is almost a growl. His free hand runs up my arm and locks into my hair, pulling my head back. I’m trapped. He looks dangerous and very threatening. If anything his eyes are darker with something I can’t explain.
“Okay” I whimper, swallowing back my pride.
“What are you doing here?” His finger brushes along my bottom lip and I blink up at him. “You shouldn’t be here…” His voice is soft. “This isn’t the place for you, Miss Robinson. Jordan isn’t good for you.”
His words cause something to stir inside me and I remember that message or warning as it was intended to me. “You’re not good for me” I whisper back.
I watch as he tilts his head back, his neck is strained and he hisses out a deep breath. When he looks back at me his eyes are wide and the ice has melted. His hair falls around his eyes, as if framing them. The desire I wanted to forget is beginning to build. Jordan is a distant memory and all I want is him. I have done for the moment I walked into that office on Monday.
“Control your thoughts, Miss Robinson.”
What? He slowly moves away much to my disappointment. Like a switch he flips, back into that cold ruthless man I first met. “I can’t concentrate being here with you. I’ll take you home.”
Its then for the first time I remember Rosie. “I can’t” I quickly say, he looks at me confused.  “I came here with my room mate.”
“And where is she now?”
I point to that door. “She went in there with a Mr Lawrence.”
“Then she is fine” he quickly says as he grips hold of my hand. “Let’s get out of here.” He begins to walk me towards the exit, not once letting go of my hand. I like having this physical connection with him. His hands are big, warm and soft. I begin to wonder what they would feel like on the rest of my body. I bite down on my lip as I get lost in an erotic day dream.
“I don’t like you dress like that” he blurts out, my day dreaming halting at a rather good bit. “You’re too innocent to be dressed in that manner.”

Monday, 18 August 2014

Episode Four

The next morning I sit at the little table, staring out at the street below. I watch the buses go by and the people shopping for their traditional Saturday breakfast. A few students go by looking worse for wear. Obviously they spent there Friday night having fun, while I had the strange encounter with my boss.
I pick up my coffee and take a sip as I think about the strange message he sent last night. What did he mean by stay away? I can’t, I work for him. I have to see him every day. There had to be another meaning, but my mind just can’t seem to work out what.
“Morning” says a cheery voice. I just grunt as Rosie takes a seat next to me and turns her attention to outside. “Oh how the young do live?” she laughs, as we watch a young couple holding hands and practically skipping down the road.
 I wonder how it feels to be like that. To wake up everyday knowing someone is thinking about you and wanting to see you. Will I ever find it? I’m only 25 and so far nothing. Expect Mr. Cole. He seems the only man that makes my body react. He’s the only one I dream about and lately fantasized about.
I’ve had a few boyfriends, but there was nothing earth moving about them. There was no hearts or flowers or butterflies in the pit of my stomach. Sex, well, that’s nothing I would brag about. No one has ever captured my imagination like he has. This makes last night a billion times worse. Could he sense my attraction towards him and instantly dismissed me to avoid any embarrassment. Is that what the message means? It’s a kind way of saying ‘I’m out of your league’?
“What did you do last night?” Rosie asks, as she lights up a cigarette and inhales. “I heard you come in around midnight.”
“Oh,” I feel my cheeks flush slightly. I don’t know why, its not like I have a romp confession to tell. “My boss got drunk” well, so he told me. “I had to pick him up and drive him home.”
“Seriously,” she giggles. “What a dick…” She stops what she is saying and jumps up from the table. I watch as she dashes into her room and dashes back out.
“You’ll never believe what happened to me last night?” Sometimes I find it very difficult to keep track with Rosie. Our conversations never seem to stay on one subject. And she always talks really really FAST!
She sits back down at the table and carries on smoking her cigarette. “I’m doing my normal job” she rolls her eyes. “Sweeping the floors, cleaning tables--blah blah” Her hands are beginning to wave all over the place and she is practically jumping up and down in her seat.
“Then this guy calls me over to his table.” She stubs out the cigarette and takes in a deep breath. “Anyway, he starts asking me all these questions --- god, Abby, you should have seen him.” She bites down on her lip and her eyes go dreamy. She shakes her head as if to help her focus. “Anyway, he starts telling me about this club.”
She slams her hand down on the table and reveals a business card. I pick it up and study it. There’s just a name, address and telephone number. I look back up at her and she is giving the biggest grin.
“He told me to go there tonight and bring a friend.”
“So a stranger just comes up to you and invites you to...” I pause to read the name. “The S and D club?” I hand her back the card and shake my head. “I don’t think that’s a good idea.”
“Why not? Come on, Abby. You never go out...”
“Wait!” I hold my hand up. “You want me to be that friend?”
Her eyebrows narrow and she looks at me like I’m stupid. “Yeah, and? Oh come on, we only have to stay for one drink. Please,” She pouts and I suddenly feel very bad for her. She obviously has a huge thing for this man and if I can help her, so be it.
“Fine” I sigh, giving in. “What time?”
“He said to be there at eight.” She jumps up from the table again and this time wraps her arms around my neck. “Thank you.” She steps away and I can finally breathe. Her eyes look at me and she begins to twitch her lips. “First, I think we need to give you a little makeover.”
“Why?”
“Oh, Abby” she playfully pinches my cheek. “Don’t you want to look hot and find a nice man?”
Do I want to look hot? I guess and what if I have found a nice man and he doesn’t seem to think I’m right for him. Rosie is right, its time to ditch the boss and find someone real. I nod in her direction and she starts clapping her hands. I’m filled with dread, what have I agreed too?

After sitting for hours feeling like a  paint by numbers while Rosie goes crazy with the make up, my torture is finally over. I gaze at my reflection in the mirror and cringe. I hate dressing up because I don’t like getting attention. Well, that’s a lie. I only like having his attention.
My own eyes roam the length of my body. She has stuck me a leather skirt which rests on my thighs and a black corset, which is so tight I feel my insides are being squashed together.
My red hair is wavy and rests on my pushed up cleavage. My make-up is over the top too; Black smoky eyes, tons of eye liner and killer red glossy lips. I look like a porn star gone wrong and feel very awkward and slightly stupid.
I trot over to my desk and grab my bag and jacket. I know in these heels I’m going to end up in A&E. I carefully walk out of my room and find Rosie putting the finish touches to her outfit. She looks amazing, dressed a skin tight black dress. Her dark hair piled up and her big eyes full of excitement.
Why can’t I be like that -- Only if it was for a day? I sometimes feel trapped in my own body. Always too scared to take risks and too scared to be who I really want to be. I’m boring, there I said it.
I don’t drink, I never go out, I can’t talk to men and I never experiment with my look. Maybe tonight I could pretend to be someone else. Pretend to confident and sexy. There’s no harm… A voice in my head laughs at me. Yeah right!
I came to the city to start a new life and to be someone new. No, I will. For tonight I will no longer be Miss Nice girl. Tonight I’m the new Abby Robinson. I will be funny, sexy, brave and bold.
“What are you smiling about” Rosie laughs at me.
“Giving myself a little prep talk.”
“Yeah … about what?”
“You’ll see” I wink at her and strut to the door. Oh my god did I just wink? It has to be this outfit. I hear Rosie laugh behind me as we exit our flat. I’m now actually excited about going to this club. For one night only I will forget about Mr Cole, his dark needs and lists. I will focus on being me and having a good time….

We walk towards a building just off the high street. There’s nothing about it that screams night club. It’s actually quiet and I can’t see a queue of people waiting to go in. However, there is a man dressed in a black suit with a clip broad waiting outside the entrance.
Rosie grips hold of my hand and we stop outside. My eyes look up and there isn’t even a sign stating that we are at the right place. This is strange, very strange.
“May I help you ladies?” The man says.
“Yes” Rosie puts on her confident voice and stands up straight. “I was invited here by a Mr Lawrence.”
The man looks down at his clip broad and gives a little nod. “Would you be Rosie by any chance?”
“Yes,” she smiles in delight.
“Go on in ladies. Go straight to the desk and Olivia will confirm your presence and will give you a introduction.”
We walk in and I can’t take my eyes of the weird man with the clip broad. His face looks amused and it makes me feel as if I’ve just been accepted into hell. When do you have to go to a club and have a introduction. None of this makes sense.
We walk through a short hallway, the décor is grand. Everything is a deep ruby red and anything that is wood is dark. A few pictures on the wall catch my eye. There all seem to be erotica; woman with blind folds, chains and strong men. I have a horrible feeling about this place.
I look over to Rosie and she is smiling. Finally she breaks the silence and leans towards me. “Do you know how long I have waited to be here?”
I stop walking and turn to look at her in surprise. There’s no time for me to ask any questions and we stop at a large  desk. A woman stands behind, dressed in a cream suit. Her blonde hair looks immaculate, just as she does. Tall, thin and outrageously beautiful. She gives a dazzling smile as her big green eyes look over at me and Rosie. Once again I feel ridiculous in my outfit. I pull the sides of jacket to hide my over spilling cleavage.
“Welcome to S & D. I’m Olivia.” She picks up something and places it before us. “These are your NDA’s. No one can enter this club without signing one of these.”
My eyes move from the paper to Rosie, who eagerly grabs a pen and starts signing.  Olivia continues to talk.
“At S & D we are very strict about our clients not devouring information to the others. Everything that happens inside remains a secret. The NDA is protection for our more established members. It gives them a sense of security.”
“Come on, Abby. Sign!” Rosie almost yells at me. Sign a document to get into a club? I have this strange feeling that I am getting into something that is over my head. I am fascinated at exactly what this place is. Its seems we have been given free membership… Why?
“Abby, what are you waiting for?” I can tell by Rosie’s voice she is beginning to get impatient. I quickly grab a pen and sign my name before I chicken out. I swallow hard as I place the pen back down. Exactly what have I done and what is this place.
“Wonderful, Ladies” Olivia beams out us. “Please go through. Copies of your agreement will be ready for you when you leave.”
I slowly back away from the desk as Rosie grips hold  of my hand.. “Oh this is so exciting” she starts doing a little dance. “oh yeah…”
“What is this place?”
Rosie stops walking as we come towards some giant wooden doors. “Does it matter?”
“It does to me
“Why?” She asks shocked while throwing her hands in the air. Her big eyes narrow and her voice is almost whisper. “Just do this for me, please…”
“I would if I understood.”
“There is nothing too understand.” She flings her arms around my neck and gives me a big hug. “If I could tell you I would. I will never ask you for anything else.”

I step out of her hug and just nod. I know her words aren't exactly true. Its not full whole week till pay day and she always runs out of something. I force a smile upon my face. I turn to face the doors, suck in a deep breath and push the door open. Wow, what I see is something spectacular…. 


Saturday, 16 August 2014

Episode Three

I step inside the house and he closes the front door behind me. The clicking of the lock echoes through the house and now the outside world is blocked out. I am now alone with this man who feels me with dread, but yet remains a mystery to me which I find almost exciting. He walks past me, flicking on lights and leads me into a room on the side. He flicks on another light and I take in the room.
Just like outside it seems small and homely, once again not what I was expecting. My eyes lingering around the room, the décor is beige with hits of warm orange highlights. There’s a plush two person sofa facing a bay window, theres no TV but the whole room is filled with books.
“Please make yourself at home” his voice is friendly, but those icy eyes tell a different story. I nod and walk over to the sofa taking a seat. He leaves the room for a moment and that fear begins to build.
What have I done? I should have driven off the minute he stepped out of my car. This inquisitive part of me what’s see where he lives and wants to know everything about him. I feel as if I have obsession coming on and it revolves about the enigma of the man I work for.
I shuffle awkwardly in my seat waiting for his return. He does, with two glasses and places them down on a small oak coffee table. He gracefully sits down beside me, one arm flopping over the back. I swallow hard, he seems to make everything look effect less and he commands every inch of his body. Those eyes never leave me and I actually enjoy him looking at me. Even though it makes me feel things I never knew existed.
“What do you think?” He smiles, a pure white seductive smile.
“About what?” I mutter, locking my fingers and placing them in my lap.
“My home” he says.
“It’s lovely. It wasn’t what I was expecting.”
He cocks an eyebrow and gives a little laugh. “Don’t tell me you were expecting some castle With butlers and landscaped gardens.” I quickly look up at him and don’t dare to say anything. “Miss Robinson, a man’s home is his castle, in spite of size.”
He reaches over, picks up a glass and offers it to me. “Don’t worry, there’s no alcohol in it.” I take the glass of him and our fingers brush slightly. Once again I feel that electric current and I can’t help but mask my gasp.
His eyes lock with mine and he tilts his head. “I would love to know what your thinking, Miss Robinson.”
“It’s really not very interesting” I mumble as I take a sip of the most delicious orange juice. I sit back in the sofa and stare down at my glass.
“Why would you say that?” he almost sounds annoyed. “I would like to get to know you. We are not in work now, so maybe you should relax.”
“I can’t relax around you” I say without thinking. God, why did I have to confess that. Because he has some sort of power over me. I find myself being dragged to him as if he has some magnetic field over me. The more I tell myself not to think about him, they more I am intrigued. Is this natural? Can others do this to you? I’m not sure. They say people can take a hold of you, but why him? Why does it have to be my boss, my new boss for that matter? The man who runs the company I want to work my way up in.
I let out a deep sigh. “Please enlighten me” his voice is husky. Should I tell me I have some obsession with him? That for the past week I have done nothing but dreamed about him and his icy blue eyes. No. I should go. Is what I want to say, but I like being this close to him. I like having his full attention. Just I like it when he praises me for full filling my duties. It gives me this warm glow, as if I achieved the impossible. Maybe I’m the sick one and not him. That has to be get, I’m the mental one and he’s trying to figure out what’s wrong with me.
He stands up and walks over to far side of the room. He stops and leans against a fireplace I never noticed before. “I have a confession to make, Miss Robinson.” He stops speaking and rubs his brow. “I only had a couple of drinks tonight and was very capable of driving myself.”
My jaw drops open in shock and my eyes widen. Wait! Does this mean…
“Yes, I have you here under false pretences.”
Holy shit, did he just read my mind? No, that doesn’t happen. “Your facial expression gave you away, Miss Robinson.” He’s done it again. I slam the glass on the table and stand up. I really have to get out of here, this is all getting beyond crazy. I walks towards the doorway and he grabs my arm, preventing me to go any further.
“I’m sorry if I am scaring you” he rushes at me.
“You always scare me” I confess, as I enjoy the feel of his arm gripping mine.
He slowly turns me around and I look up at him towering over me. His blues eyes have softened and his mouth is turned down at the sides.” That has never been my intention.”
“Then what is your intention?”
Something changes in his facial expression and he backs away from me. “What if I told you I wanted you for another purpose?”
“I would ask what the other purpose is.”
A lazy grin spreads across his lips and I find it very hard not to smile with him. “You want me to confess my dark needs. But yet you won’t even tell me what your thinking.” He shakes his finger at me. “Nice try, Miss Robinson. Before I can tell you anything…  I want to get back to why I got you here.”
“And why did you get me here?”
“To get to know you.”
I shrug my shoulders. “Don’t you already know everything? I was interviewed to work in your company. You must of read all the notes before you offered me the job?”  This is beginning to get very tiresome; we are both just throwing questions around and not getting any answers.
“I want to know why you are always so jumpy and very quite.”
Really --  Isn’t that obvious. Oh what the heck, maybe if I talk, he’ll talk and this whole weird event will be over.
“You’” I sternly say.
He gives a little nod and walks back to the sofa. I remain standing shocked at my blunt honesty. Through my eyelashes I look towards him, is he shocked too? I doubt it, he still looks calmed and controlled as very. He waits a second, the pad of his thumb runs along his bottom lip.
“I suppose we should do something to stop you feeling like that” his voice slightly husky. He pats the space next to him and as always I run on his command and sit down. “Now lets start again…”
“What do you want to know that you don’t already” I quirkily reply. I don’t know where this brave attitude has come from.
He turns his whole body to face me, his finger gently brushing under my chin and he tilts my head up to meet his gaze. My whole body begins to warm up and I find my eyes locked on his perfect mouth.
“I want to know everything….”
“There isn’t much to know…”
“Why would you say that?” His eyes sparkle and I have to catch my breath. “Please tell, Miss Robinson. Why do you feel your not worthy to know?”
I roll my eyes. “Look at me” I snap, my hand moves from my head down the length of my body. “I’m fat and not much to look at.” I sigh as I allow the words to drop from my mouth. “I’m not graceful. I have no talents. There is nothing about that is appealing. I don’t fit in anywhere and I’m not very good at being sociable.
“Mmmm” he says, as he thinks about what I have just said. “Maybe you are right.” He quickly stands up and lets out a deep breath. “I’m sorry, miss Robinson.” Within a flash everything about him changes. He looks agitated as he runs his fingers through his hair. His expression almost looks tormented and I blink up at him confused.
“For what?” Why did this all change quickly?
“For bringing you here” his tone is clipped and cold again. His eyes have once again iced over. “You should go!” Without another word he walks out of the room. I slowly rise from the sofa and make my own way out. Once back outside in the real world I look back over at his house, now all in complete darkness. Just like the man who owns it.
I pull car keys out of my pocket and walk towards the car. He never did tell me why he wanted to get to know me? His words circle in my head…. You want me to confess my dark needs. What dark needs.. What could that possibly mean? Great, just when I wanted all this to stop I am more drawn to him and his secrets. I climb into my car and head home. Replaying our weird conversation in my head.
I creep inside my flat and tip toe into my room. I don’t want to wake Rosie, I couldn’t explain what happened tonight? The whole thing feels dream like and surreal. I close my door quietly and sit down on my bed. That’s when I notice my phone flashing, still sat where I left it. I quickly pick it up, there is a message…. From him. I eagerly read it, hoping for some explanation from the man who now I’m obsessed about. I stare at the message, blinking rapidly unable to make sense of it….
Please take this as a warning… Stay away… I’m not good for you.


Episode Two

Episode Two
The rest of the week is pretty much the same. Although there are no more encounters alone with Mr Cole. In fact I try my hardest not to be alone with him. He frightens me. I know there is something dark about him.
I’m glad for the weekend to finally be here. A few days away from the intense work environment is welcomed. I swear my heart is suffering big time. What is it about this man that makes me feel this way? Is it because I don’t understand anything he says or is it because he’s words have a double meaning?
Either way, I don’t want to find out. I climb into bed and get myself comfortable. I am in desperate need of sleep. My whole body feels drained, I think that’s because I have never worked full time before. I close my eyes and if on cue my thoughts begin to think of dark blue eyes and half naked Mr Cole. What is wrong with me? Not only does he invade my days, but he is now invading my nights? I sit up and switch my bedside lamp on. I bring my knees up to my chest and hug them hard.
Maybe I should look up what Rosie said… That is just stupid, researching my boss. Or maybe he has some sort of disorder. He could be an OCD or suffer from other mental illness. Either it makes my head hurt just dealing with his mood swings and demanding behaviour.
I lay back on my bed and stare up at the ceiling. I need to forget about work for a few days and relax. After all there might not be a reason for the way he is. For all I know the power and successful maybe just be his ego boast and he likes treating people the way he does. I really don’t know a thing about the man I work for. Then again I don’t really want to become his friend.
My phone begins to beep and I lean over to get it. Just when I thought I escaped reality hits it. It’s a message and its from him. I look over at my clock, its almost ten at night. I click open the message and begin to read…
CALL ME… NOW!
What? Is he serious? It’s the weekend, well Friday night the beginning of the weekend. Then his words hit me, ‘I will be able to contact you at any moment.’ I believe he has stuck to his word.  Contact me for what? Obviously meetings aren’t conducted at this time of night. After a little debate I hit his ‘preferred’ out of hours contact number. Yep, there was another list. On the second ring he asks, his voice cold and clipped.
“Cole,”
“Mr Cole, its Abby… Miss Robinson” I hesitant.
“Perfect” he snaps. “I need you to pick me up. I’ve had slightly more than I planned to drink and unable to drive home.”
WHAT?  He can’t be serious, where in my job description did it say personal driver? I’m not doing this and I doubt my ten year old Clio would live up to his standards. I run my hands through my hair and try to find the courage to basically tell him where to go.
“Miss Robinson,” he says again. His voice low and he almost hisses my name. god, I hate it when he does that. My head swoons immediately and forget about everything. “I’m at the Randolf hotel in the bar. I’ll expect you within twenty minutes.”
The line goes dead… NO! Now I have to do it and I really don’t want to. SHIT  Why me? Doesn’t he have anyone else? I swing my legs over the edge of the bed and stand up. I quickly pull on some jeans and a sweat top over my head. I don’t have time for make-up and my hair will have to do with a ponytail.
I grab my car keys off my desk and leave my room. I’m hardly dressed appropriately for some fancy hotel, but itdoesn’t matter I don’t plan on staying.
“Rosie,” I call out and theres no answer. She’s proberly not back from work. I leave my flat and head towards my car. My beautiful silver Clio who is my pride of joy. Okay, she’s ten years old and a little run down. She’s mine. I climb inside and start the engine. All the whole drive I am curious about what I will find.
He didn’t sound drunk over the phone. Then again  he seems to gain control from everything. My mind thinks back to seeing half naked. You have admit he is good looking.  Any woman would be crazy not to fancy him. I am terrfied of him. Just with a look he can make me feel as if I’m nothing. I have spent most of my life living in the shadows of others. Made to feel bad because I’m not your perfect  blonde size 8. I like my deep red hair and I like my curves. Over the years I have began to accept myself, but around him I lose all self confidence. That’s what bothers me the most.
I pull up outside the hotel, which is exactly 15 minutes drive from my flat on the Cowley Road. A porter is standing outside the enterance and he gives me a funny look.
“Miss” he holds out his hands. “I’m sorry about ….”
I roll my eyes and hold my wn hand up. “I know my clothes and the trainers. I’m only here to pick up Mr Cole from the bar. I wil be less than 2 minutes.” He nods and hands gestures for me to walk in. Phew, that was easier than I thought.   I walk through the grand lobby, there's a sign that indicates the bar is through the next door. I take in a deep breath, push open the door and step in. The place is filled with chatter and laughter. I tug at my sweat top as I begin to feel awkward about how I’m dressed. My eyes linger across the room and that’s when I see him. Sat at the bar on a stool, his shirt shelves rolled up to his elbows, tie loosely around his neck and his hair slightly mused from him running his fingers through it all day. He lefts his eyes from his drink and they lock with mine. Those icy blue eyes which are slightly red now. I walk towards him, my heart beating through my chest. His eyes watch my every movement and the muscle in his jaw twitches and I think I know why.
“Miss Robinson” he mumbles, picking up his glass and downing the last bit. “Please take a seat.”
“I can’t” I quickly reply. “I told the man I was only here to pick you up.”
“And I said sit” he says forcefully. I watch as that lip twitches again. He rests his elbow on the bar and leans slightly back as if to take a better look at me. “Did I wake you?”
“No.”
“But you were at home?”
“Yes.”
I cross my arms across my chest and begin to tap my foot impatiently. I really just want to drop him off and go home. I don’t understand why he is dragging this out. I hear him give  little chuckle and I raise an eyebrow.
“Have a drink with me?” He asks.
“I don’t drink.”
“Ever?”
“No!” His questions are really beginning to get on my nerves. “Please, Mr Cole. Let me just drop you home, please.”
He waits a second, stands up from his seat and grabs his jacket resting on the bar. He slightly wobbles and I find myself reaching out to hold him steady. He looks down at me and I feel some charge flow through my body. What is that? A smile curls across his lips and we begin to walk out of the bar. He doesn’t say one word and seems keen to let me guide him to my car.He is heavy and the walk seems to go on forever.
. Once by my car, I rest him against it and fumble opening the door. “This is what you drive?” he tone is off beat and his eyes move over the length of my most precious procession.
“Yes,” I reply weakly, somehow managing to open the door with shaky hands.
“At Cole publication we do offer company cars” he mutters as he climbs inside. I roll my eyes as I close the door behind him. I bet they do offer company cars and I bet there is a list to go along with it. I walk round to my side and climb inside myself. It then hits me that I am in a small confide space with him. I slowly look over at him, elbow rested on the window and his hand cupping his face. He has some stupid smirk on his face and I have a funny feeling the alcohol is taking affect.
I switch the engine on and begin to drive as he watches my every move. “Where am I dropping you off?” I ask, not daring to take my eyes off the road. Him being this close is already disrupting my concentration.
“Abingdon, Miss Robinson” his words are beginning to slur. He reaches out and switches on my car stereo. I hate music when driving, but on this one occasion I will let it slide. Although, truthfully I’m little scared at what he would do if I said no. I bet people always give it to him. No one shell deny the king!
“Tell me..” he sits back in his seat. “Are you enjoying your job?”
Great, now he’s making small chit chat. “Yes.”
“How are you finding your colleagues?”
I bite down on my lip as I make the turning for the M4, this is the quickest way I know. I really don’t want to spend much more time with him. I can feel the heat from his glaring and every now and then I hear him tuting. He obviously disapproves of my driving.
“They’re fine” I lie. So far everyone I meet looks down their noses at me. It’s like being a new kid at school. No one thinks your cool enough to join their gang. Then again, life has always been that way for me. I’ve never fitted in anywhere.
“Turn left” he says as we approach the crossroad. He rests his head on the back of the seat and lets out a little sigh. “I was actually meant to meet someone tonight.”
“Yes and what happened to them?” I ask out of curiosity. This whole situations doesn’t feel right. I am completely on edge and making sure not to show my horrible driving habits. I want to be perfect. I want to prove to him I am compliable.
“I had a change of mind” he casually says, while running his fingers through his hair. Why do I feel that reply requires an answer, before I can say anything he's instructed me the way to his home.
We pull up outside a small quaint house. I expecting some mansion with arches of land and a drive way. Outside looks humble and homely. I cut the engine and sit back in my seat. Glad that I didn’t crash.  He makes no attempt to get out of my car. He turns his whole body towards me and those icy eyes make me squirm in my seat. My breathing is audibly heavier and my heart races. How does he do that?
“I would like you to come inside with me” he orders.
“I can’t” I whine. “I should really be heading back home.”
A lazy grin spreads across his lips. “Why do you have someone there?”
“Well… no!” Like that is his business.
“Tell me one thing, Miss Robinson. Are you gay?” What! My jaw drops open and I just stare at him blinking rapidly. “Okay, how about are you a virgin?”
Seriously, you can’t ask people personal questions like that. I shut my mouth, close my eyes and take in a deep breath. I swallow back my anger and look back at him. His head is tilted and he is actually waiting for an answer.
I roll my eyes. “No, Mr. Cole I am not gay and I am not a virgin. It begs to differ why you would ask such intrusive questions.”
A little humor crosses over his face. “Because I can, Miss Robinson.” We just stare at one another, either one giving in. I’m not sure what he's expecting to happen; I don’t even know what’s going to happen. All I want him to do is get out of my god damn car.
“Come inside, please” his voice is huskier than I have ever heard. “Please, just for a moment.”
“I…”
He lifts his hand and places his forefinger against my lips. Wow, a shoot of electric bolts through me and gravitates to my groin. I feel muscles down below cramp up in anticipation. The feeling is wondrous and unexpected. He raises an eyebrow and then slowly moves away getting out of my car. Maybe I should go inside with him, just to see what all this fuss is about.
Also seeing his home may give me a better understand. I take in a deep breath and climb out of the car myself. I follow him towards the front door and that fear begins. I have a strange feeling I am going to regret this…..
He is heavy and the walk seems to go on forever. 

Friday, 15 August 2014

Episode One

THIS FAN FICTION BASED ON MY THREE FAVOURITE BOOKS... GUESS IF YOU CAN?This morning can not get any worse; first I woke up late, second I missed the bus and had to walk the whole way to my new job. Thirdly, my shoes are pinching my feet and I haven’t even arrived at my new desk.
I dash into an overflowing elevator and look down at my watch. I have exactly one minute to get my floor, sit at my desk and make out I have been there the whole time.
I recently moved here after landing my dream job. I am working for Cole Publications. A major book company who are known intentionally. Great, now thirty seconds. The lift pings and I step out. This place is amazing. Everything is white, stylist and perfect. The whole floor is quiet and I can see a door saying my name. I want to jump on the spot with joy. I have a door with my name.
I hear a door open and close, an old woman dressed in a brown suit, her hair pinned back and staring at me over the top her glasses. “You must be the new girl” her voice is fierce and her face looks like she has been sucking on a lemon.
“Yes” I reply, taking a step towards. “My name is…”
“I know what you name is” she barks. “You better get inside your office. Mr. Cole doesn’t take too well to people being late. He’s left everything you will need on you desk.”
Wow, what a nice welcome. I refuse to speak to her and trot over to my office. My office -- a whole office that's mine. I step inside and always faint. It’s tiny. All I have is a large desk, a laptop, phone and one little window. I slam my bag down on my desk and decide to take a look my view. Great the bins. Which means when the weather gets nice I won’t even be able to open the window?
I sit down at my desk and look around at the broom cupboard. The walls have paint falling off them. The carpet is barely even there. I guess this will have to do. I open my bag and start taking out my things. A picture of family, the paperweight in the shape of cat my mother gave me and last of all my pen set. That’s it and it doesn’t even do anything to the space.
I look up at the clock above the door. I’ve been here 5 minutes, no one person has bothered to talk to me or check on me. I grab the blue file on my desk and decide to read.

Welcome to Cole Publication. The follow documents well explain what your job entails and what I expect from my employees. As my personal assistant you will be expecting to perform specific tasks and excel at them. I do not tolerant second best or wish to ever remind you of what is written. You will learn all of this and perform your job well.

My eyes open wide, wow already I feel out of my depth. I carry on reading. Already I can tell my new boss is a control freak.

The layout of the working day.

As a very busy man I find it hard to squeeze in meals. Also as a healthy man who takes pride in my body. My meals will be relying on you. I expect my breakfast 8am sharp. (There is a list of food at the back which has been approved.) My coffee (Please refer to list on correct way to make it) should be served at 11am. Lunch is always a 12pm.  (List of recommend restaurants also at back.)
You are in control my schedule, unless otherwise told different. You will attend meetings with me and write notes. These notes must be clear and accurate. You will be ready for anything and I will be able to contact you at moment.
The phone should be used for personal calls, the internet should not be abused and you should make sure your office remains clean and tidy. I expect my assistant to dress respectably. As some days will be long, please follow the diet at the back.
There are a few occasions – i.e., dinners, charity balls, book promotions where I will expect you to attend. Please understand these will require a certain dress code and Cole Publication will offer to pay for certain garments. 
Also in this document please find your contract.

I roll my eyes, seriously what is this? I decide to put the fold down and close it. I thought it was just answering phones and writing emails. Now I have to train, be a personal chief and learn to mesmerise lists.  This isn’t what I sighed up for. You never see this in the movies. Normally the personal assistants are glamorous and make the job seem easy.
To top it all I’m rubbish at remembering things. I place my head in my hands and silently weep. This job is going to be too hard and it’s my first. The phone rings making me jump. I quickly answer.
“Good morning” I say weakly. Shit, I should have gone through the appropriate answer questions list.
“Morning” says a low abrupt voice. “I will require you in my office now, Miss Robinson.” Without another word the call ends. I stare at the handset and fear runs through me. I’m guessing that was my new boss. I stand up and smooth down my skirt. Now worrying that he won’t find it respectably enough. I haven’t even met this man just and I am already on edge.
I walk out of my little office and head out in the brightness of the rest of the place. I look around, trying to figure out what door I should head across. It isn’t hard, when I read the name plates. ‘Dexter Cole- CEO of Cole Publications’. I head straight towards it, my legs are beginning to feel weak and I take in a sharp breath. I am really scared and I’ve only read that document.
I give a little knock and walk in. Shit, maybe I should have waited for an answer. I stand in the doorway and stare in at the over large space with floor to ceiling windows. Go figure, he has a perfect view of Oxford. The sun streaming through the windows and bouncing off the white walls.
He’s on the phone with his back towards me. I look down at the floor white he carries on talking slightly swirl in his chair. His voice is just abrupt as it was when he spoke to me. I have this weird feeling he isn’t going to like me. I can barely walk in a straight line sometimes without falling over. I’m hopeless at remembering names. My mouth and brain aren’t connected and I am hardly every mans dream.
“Good. That’s all” he ends the phone call and spins round to face me. “Hmm” he says, as he eyes roam over me. I cringe, that isn’t a good first impression. He points to the chair in front of his desk. “Sit, Miss Robinson.”
Immediately I race over almost tripping over my own legs and landing in the chair. My face goes bright red and jaw drops open in shock. I slowly look up to meet his annoyed glare. His blue eyes narrowed and his jaw tight. That’s when I notice how beautiful he is. My heart races, this isn’t good.  He has amazing features; angular jaw line, a sharp nose, big blue eyes and designer stubble. The massive of auburn hair looks red when the light hits it. My eyes wander lower to his broad shoulders and to the button on his shirt open, revealing a little chest hair. He reminds me of one of those men you see in the perfume adverts. He is my boss, great not only is he controlling, demanding but he has to be good looking too. This is not fair and now I know I will be gone within the first week.
“Well, Miss Robinson” he speaks. “I take it you have read your document.” I just nod. “Good. Did you understand everything?” I nod again. I watch as his lips tighten even more. His fist slams into his desk and I jump. “When I ask you a question I expect a reply.”
“Sorry, Mr. Cole” I weakly reply, my hands locked in my lap and I bow my head.
“I will let this one time slide” he grunts. “Let this be a warning, Miss Robinson.”
“I’m sorry sir” I repeat, I don’t know why I said sir, it just seem appropriate in this situation. “It won’t happen again.”
“I’ll take your word for it” he begins to shuffle papers on his desk and I sit still as if I was a child. Just being in his presence makes me feel small and weak. I’m scared to even breathe. I look back up and his eyes stare intensely at me. I swear a secret smile is playing on his lips. I bet get his kicks out of people being like this. He’s the king of the caste and we are the little people who bow down at his feet.
“What is my schedule today?” he asks, leaning back in his chair.
My eyes widen and I feel sick. Schedule? “I’m sorry” I hesitant. “No one has given me a schedule for you and I wouldn’t know where to find it.”
He rolls his eyes and exhales. His hand reaches for his phone and he hits a button. “Rachel,” he yells down the phone. “Why didn’t anyone show Miss Robinson to her office and show her the ropes…” he pauses. “That isn’t good enough. Get your in here with my schedule and then teach Miss Robinson how to use the computer system.” He slams the phone down. Within a second the woman in the brown suit runs into the room.
“I’m sorry, Mr. Cole. It was my mistake, I’m sorry” she is blabbing mess.
“Give it to Miss Robinson” he orders, ignoring her plea. She turns her head in my direction and I give a little smile. At least I’m not the only one who reacts this way with him.
“Certainly” she hands me the schedule. “Anything else?” With a flick of his hand is summoning her out of the room.
“Right, go ahead, Miss Robinson.”
I stare down at the piece of paper and give a little cough. “Well, you have a telephone  meeting at 10.30 with PR. Lunch at 12, then 2 you have an appointment with….” It doesn’t say. I turn the paper over to see if it’s written at the back. I look back at him. “I don’t know who you have an appointment with…”
“That’s okay” his voice is actually soft this time. “Any personal appointments will never be added to my schedule.” I watch as his blue eyes blink rapidly and I watch him swallow hard. He runs his hands through his hair and lets out a deep breath. “I think that will be all for now. Rachel is going to show you the computer and I expect your sighed contract on my desk by the end of the day.”
I quickly nodded and gracefully get out of my seat. I head towards the door. “Oh and Miss Robinson,” I stop and turn to face him. He cocks one eyebrow and his lip twitches. “Here at Cole publications skirts are required to be no shorter than knee length.”
I look down at my skirt and back up at him. He is staring at my legs, I suddenly feel very expose and walk out of his office. My head is slightly dizzy and I am not sure of what to make of my boss. I head straight towards my office and wait for Rachel to appear.
I sit at my desk and reach out for that folder. I know I should really study this. My office door opens and in steps Rachel. She has now turned back into that angry woman I had the pleasure of meeting earlier. She strolls in and dumps a load of paperwork on my desk.
“The computer system isn’t hard to work” she snaps, once again peering over the top of her glasses. “It does help if you switch the thing on.”
Start away I discard the folder and search for the power button on the laptop. It straight away comes to life and the Cole publication icon brightens up the screen. I looked at her as she scowls back at me. What is wrong with these people? They all seem to be moody and cold. Maybe its me. Maybe I stick out more than I thought I would.
Out of awkwardness, I tuck a loose strand of hair behind my ears. I know I’m not your typical skinny natural beauty. I don’t look too bad. Yes my thighs are a little chunky, my stomach isn’t exactly flat and my hips are on the big side. I have always managed to win people over with my personalty and brains. Somehow I don’t think that’s enough here. I think my father was right, I should of just worked in a supermarket behind the checkout.
“Now” Rachel’s voice is commanding. “In your menu you will find everything you need. The calendar, your word and spread sheet. The emails and last of all your contacts.”
“Um, thank you” I smile, but it isn’t returned. “Here is the reports. Its your job to file them. I take it you cane file things?”
“Of course” I am still smiling. Why am I smiling? This woman obviously thinks I’m stupid.
“Hmmm” with that she turns on her heel and leaves me in my tiny office.
I know feel foolish. I slump back in my chair and rest my head on the back of my seat. I don’t know what to do. I either work out now or I prove to these people that I can do this job. I look over at the door… One hour and already I am thinking about walking out and throwing in the towel.
Times drifts away as I busy myself with filing. Its taken a while to get use to their strange system but I think I have in underhand. The phone buzzes and I jump to answer it.
“Hello,” I say, while sitting down at my desk.
“Miss Robinson,” I cringe when he says my name. “Do you know what time it is?”
I shrug my shoulders and then realize I am actually on the phone and his Lordship can’t see me. “Mmm…” my eyes look up at the clock and jump out of my seat. Its 5 minutes past 11. shit, he’s stupid coffee. “I’m really sorry, sir. Give me two minutes.”
“One minute” he ends the call.
I rush out of my office and go in search of the tea room. I can’t believe I didn't remember that. That’s twice I have mess up today. This is now officially the worse day of my life. I stumble in a little kitchen and get a coffee prepare. Carefully I carry towards his office, open the door set it down on his desk. He looks up from his computer and nods. I give a breath of relief and decide to make  a quick exit.
“not so fast, Miss Robinson.”
I halt in the doorway and slowly turn in his direction. With one hand he points to the chair ion front of his desk. I walk back over and sit down. At least I didn't fall into the chair this time. He slowly picks up the cup and brings it up to his mouth. He takes a sip and his whole face screws up as he spits back in the cup.
“What is this?” he yells with disgust.  He picks up a tissues and wipes his mouth. “Maybe to you, but this isn’t the way I drink it.”
Oh my god, his list. I don’t dare say a word and look down at my hands. “I'm sorry, sir” I repeat for the millionth time today. “I haven’t read the whole document yet. I was busy filing.”
“You’re lucky its your first day. I won’t punish you this time.”
My head springs back up and I look over at his face. He looks dangerous, his eyes are narrow and his mouth twitches in a mercious way. Punish me? Exactly what would he do? Fire me? I can’t think of anything to say, his words have stunned me.
He rests his head in his hands and carries on staring at me. Instantly I feel little and insignificant. I must remember I am one of the little ones who should worship the ground he walks on
“Tell Miss Robsinon, why did you take a job here?” His whole compose has changed in a blink of an eye. He now looks interested in me and his voice is a little less hostile.
“Because Cole publication is one of the biggest publishing companies in the world. Also it has a fantastic employee package and an exceptional career ladder. I would be foolish not to want to work here.”
He beams in delight and I swear his eyes sparkle. “Wonderful answer.” He sits back in his throne and runs his hands through his hair. “I like my coffee black with one sugar. I hope tomorrow you will please me.”
Please him? “Yes, sir” is all I can say.
“Lunch. Today you can make me reservation at Bar all One. That is all, Miss Robinson.” I get up out of my seat and walk to the door with eyes looking down at my feet. I wait a moment, but he doesn’t say anything and leave.
I race back to my desk, call the restaurant and then grab my blue folder. I have to study this, this thing is now my holy bible. Why do I have this strange feeling that I need to please him. I want to please him. The thought of being punished is too terrifying. I get to work and spend the whole day remembering every detail about my bosses likes and dislikes.

After work I head back to the little flat I share with Rosie, my flat mate. She’s kind of wacky but in a fun way. I only met her through a ad for a room mate. So far we are getting on pretty well. I enter the small hallway and finally slip my feet out of my heels. My feet feel free but slightly bruised. Tomorrow I am wearing flats. I head into the living room to find my cat, Tabby sleeping on the sofa. I give her a little tickle and walk straight into the kitchen. I am staving and my eyes hurt from the reading I did. I open the fridge and grab one of my fat free yoghurt.
“You’re home” Rosie sings as she breezes into the kitchen all dressed for work. Her PVC crop-top, PVC skirt and thigh high boots. I would never get away wearing something like that. Her black hair is all piled up and her face made up perfectly highlighting her amazing face.
I walk over to a draw and grab a spoon.”Yep” I sigh.
“How was it?”
Ugh, is all I can think. My boss is intimidating, controlling and slightly disturbing. He wants to punish me, he wants me to please him  and I have no idea what any of that means. I avoid saying that answer and opt for. ‘okay.”
Rosie raises a perfect pierced eyebrow and shakes a finger at me. “I know your lying.” She grabs me by the elbow and leads me into the living room. She pushes me down on the sofa and poor Tabby has to jump out of the way. She stands straight in front of me, her hands on her hips and her big dark eyes glaring down at me. I am slowly getting use to ways. She is very... what’s the word? Pushy? Yeah, she’s very pushy.
“Now you tell me what happened?”
I shrug my shoulders and stare down at my yoghurt. I begin to chew my lip. “My boss is very demanding” I begin and once I start I can’t stop. “He has lists of approved food, restaurants, drinks. I feel that this job is going to take over my life.” I roll my eyes, I can’t believe I am about this. I’m a grown woman. “He wants me to please him and if I don’t he’ll punish me. What does that mean?”
Roxie’s head drops back and she starts laughing.  “Oh sweetie” she drops down beside me and wraps an arm round my shoulder. “I think I know.”
“Know what?”
“Sounds to me your boss is a Dom.”
“A what?” I turn in her direction. “What’s a dom?”
She gives me a cheeky wink and stands back up. “Look it up… Tell your boss I said hi.”
“Rosie” I call after her, but she ignores me and leaves. I remain in my seat, my eyes blinky rapidly and even more confused by what Rosie has said. I thought this was the worse day of my life. Really this is the weirdest day!

I get to work at 7.30 am. The whole place is quiet as I walk through the lobby towards Mr Cole’s office clutching my Tesco carrier bag filled with breakfast. I walk inside and its empty. I quickly get to work setting up his breakfast, I am slightly on edge. I know everything I have provided is on the stupid list. The whole idea of punishment feels me with dread. I don’t think he is what Rosie said. I think it was his subtle way of saying if I didn’t pull my act together I would be out. I can’t lose this job, this is everything I have always wanted. Also, my family would be disappointed.
I’m the first one to move out of the sleepy village of Ashville and into the big city centre of Oxford. I couldn’t go back now.  I hear a door click and feet moving, my eyes slowly drift to a half naked man, with a towel rest around his shoulders. My whole mouth goes dry as I take in his muscular toned arms and ripped stomach. I can’t move my eyes from him and my mouth won’t work.
He grabs both ends of the towel and leans against the wall. I’m right, he could star in those perfume adverts. “Morning, Miss Robinson” his voice is low and velvety. Something deep within side tingles and I have to mentally slap myself. I divert my eyes and point to his desk.
“Your breakfast” I almost yell the words. My head is going crazy trying to string a sentence.  He walks towards me, I inhale deeply and regret it straight away. He smells delicious; sandle wood mixed exotic spices. I take a slight step away from him, in order to control myself. What is wrong with me?
“Good,” he nods and sits down at his desk. He points to the orange juice. “Without bits?” I nod, he then points to his Greek yoghurt. “Low fat?” I nod again, he turns his attention the muesli. “Nut?” I nod again. He sits back in his chair and his mouth tightens into that straight line, his blue eyes catching my attention. “What did I say about that yesterday?” He waits a few seconds, but my mind has gone blank. “When I speak to you I expect a reply.”
“Yes, sir” I mumble, why am I saying sir again. I can call him Mr Cole. It seems to be the most natural reply. Every time I say it I notice his eyes sparkle in delight. This is strange. Maybe its not me that’s strange, maybe its just him. Yes, there is something very different about him and I can’t figure out what.
Smash… My thoughts stop when I notice he’s dropped his bowl on the floor. Straight away I crouch down on my knees and begin cleaning up the mess. I hear slight movement and then that magical smell invades my nose. My eyes slowly look up and there he is squatting in front of me. His blue eyes are darker and he’s expression is unreadable. With his thumb and forefinger he cups my chin, turning my face one direction and then another. My eyes stay locked on his, my heart beats fast and anticipation enlightens my body.
“Yes,” he says very softly. “You seem to be a natural.” His voice sends goose bumps all over my body and I have no idea what his words mean. He quickly stands up and heads towards the door he came from. “Clean this mess up, Miss Robinson. Then you can return to your office.”

I wait for the door to close shut and bring my hand up to my chest. My heart is racing and now I am more confused than before. My breathing is harsh and my whole body is tingling.  Natural? What is natural? I close my eyes, take in a deep breath and begin to clean the mess up.